Disgusted

Just to give a brief update. I weigh about the same as I did last year. I feel as though I've lost more muscle, so less of my clothes fit even though i weigh the same. I can't seem to get motivated to work out at all. I'm so disgusted with myself.

On the other hand, Rachel is doing AWESOME in this area. I wish we lived around each other and I had her to help keep me motivated.

Not much progress...

Though I am more active, I have yet to get four workouts in during one week. I usually make it to three, but skip out on one somewhere. It feels better to be working out again, but I think I need to push myself a little harder. My membership to the Rec Center expires on July 5th. Unfortunately, I will not have the necessary funds to renew right away, so that will leave me with running outside and utilizing the student-athlete facility that kind of skimps on cardio-vascular machines. It will be better than nothing.

The Lifehouse CD was released a week early and I'm not any closer to meeting my goal. I have seven more pounds to lose before I can purchase the new album. I really want to listen to it!! I wish it was motivating me a little more. I know I'm not trying as hard as I could be. Also, another motivation for the rest of the summer will be the Biggest Loser competition rounded up by Rachel. The first weigh in is Friday. Let's get a jump start for the first weigh in!!! Go Team!

It's about time

I’m finally back at it. Counting calories and striving for four workouts per week. It’s technically only been one week since I’ve been working out again. My doctor said to start out slow and that I would feel like a truck hit me the first time I worked out. It wasn’t quite that bad. I even ran a mile on Sunday night … it was actually pretty rough … I wanted to pass out. John and I have gone on a couple of bike rides and that has been a fun way to work out. In the past two weeks, I’ve lost 3 pounds. Not much, but it’s a start. My goal is still to lose a total of 10 by the time the Lifehouse cd comes out, so I can buy it. The release date is June 26, so I’m running short on time. I’m not sure I can do it in that time frame, but the cd is definitely a motivation … the new single sounds great on the radio! Wish me luck!

No Physical Activity

So, I'm not supposed to do any physical activity until I feel 100% better. Great. Not that I have the energy to do my normal workouts anyway. I don't want my spleen to rupture or anything. Doctor's orders!

Medication

I also wanted to mention about my medication. As of last Tuesday, April 3rd, I took my last dose of generic Zoloft. It is my belief that some of my weight gain was due to the medication I was taking. I think that after three or four months on the medication, I got what I needed and we’ll see how my well-being is without it. It was never meant to be a long term solution, just an encouragement and way to temporarily deal with my social anxiety. I think that I did gain some confidence, enough to see how I’ll do without it. With the combination of exercise and therapy, I think I can continue on this path of self-learning and growth. It’s really neat to reflect on how far I’ve come in the past year and it makes me thankful for all of my experiences: starting therapy, new and forced responsibilities at work, and diving deeper into life. I highly recommend it for everyone!

Lifehouse

As I mentioned on Trying, Lifehouse has a new album coming out in June. My goal is to lose ten pounds before I will allow myself to purchase the album. This is an effort to push and motivate myself to get off my fat ass and do something about my weight. As you can see, this well-being blog has really helped me with motivation (please note sarcasm). I think striving to work out four times per week will assist me in losing the ten pounds. The update is: I actually worked out four times this past week: Wednesday, Thursday, Saturday, and Sunday. My legs are very sore … in a good way. This tells me how out of shape I am … I’ve pretty much lost all muscle in my legs (how depressing).

Routine

We all knew that I wouldn’t keep up with this blog. I have a hard enough time keeping up with the original one.

So I would like to try and develop a new routine. It will consist of going to the rec center before work on Monday, Wednesday, Friday and then working out with a co-worker at the Gross Center Tuesdays and Thursdays. Of course, baseball and softball games will interfere, but I definitely need some sort of routine. Routine becomes much more difficult when one works many nights and weekends.

This plan was supposed to be in effect starting Monday. I overslept. And unfortunately, right now, I’m eating a toasted roll from Tuffy’s. I feel like a failure, but let’s hope that I can get to the gym tonight after work.

Another update, the Well-Being Way is now over. I enjoyed the program very much. I will try to share more of it on here when I get a chance. I wish that I would have done it as we went along, mais c’est la vie.